now i'm falling asleep to forget you

If I think that everyone else out there sucks... maybe that just means I suck. Maybe that means I'm worthless. Maybe it means that I will always care more about people than they care about me. Maybe this means I can't do anything right, ever. It really sucks being me. Everyone sees me as a funny person to be like, wow does she really exist? I'm almost like a dream to some people, or a character. Not a real person. The reason why I hurt is the same reason why you all laugh at me. It's never going to end, is it? It's sad... the only way I can stand out is by making myself into a giant joke. Fuck this.