i kind of like that no one reads this

Hey you!
Thanks for giving me someone else on my list to miss. Thanks for giving me something else to know I lost. You say I did it to myself, but that's just how you reassure yourself. The only thing I did wrong was follow my heart. I would never do anything like that to myself. Friendships require sacrifice, understanding, honesty, and... well what the hell does it matter anyway? I was never a friend to you, I was a goal. You've misassigned qualities to me that never existed. You idealized me into something unrecognizable. You were surprised when you discovered that you didn't really know me, maybe because you weren't trying to.

'I can't explain myself, I'm afraid, sir,' said Alice, 'Because I'm not myself you see.'

MY myself, and your idea of what my "myself" is, are two totally different things.